new beginnings
today on the car ride home, dad told me i have a very obsessive personality.
this was after he noticed how i was swinging my legs and humming along to 'the miseducation of lauryn hill' playing from his old car speakers. he reminded me (for the billionth time) tht when i was very little, i made him and mum play that album on repeat until they couldn’t stand it anymore. they still blame me for ruining one of the greatest american albums of the 90s
he told me how my long lived obsessions (like ballet, gymnastics, art) and my not so long lived obsessions (like tennis and skateboarding) has made my dad's life slightly harder. i knew he meant it with love, but i could not help but think that it was time i had some agency over my own obsessions.
i decided that i want to make this blog an obsession of mine. i want it to be the place i come back to, over and over again. maybe its to write little posts like this, or teach myself something new in coding so i can make this website look prettier. i want this obsession of mine to journal all my other obsessions: like my new records at the gym, or my feelings about a new movie that came out that i will forever cherish in my heart.
i wanna also make it about the ppl tht i am obsessed over, like my sisters, my parents, my closest friends, my teachers, my co workers!! i want this blog to be all about my obsessions. i want it to be a love letter for everything that i care about.